holidays !

Hello hello.
S1T2 was a blast. I did think I could have done much better,

If it was not for my lazy backside.
I'm now in my new class Group B.

I have a lovely bunch of classmates.


vry vry family-ish and active ppl.
wheeeeee!

Unfortunately my old class had to be seperated to
accommodate the lack of teachers.

Seperated like a pizza slice. Random.But yea u get the point..

Its kinda crazy.
My English lecturer left for the UK.
The BM lecturer went psycho I think and just left.
And we... have to bear the consequence.
BUT

Thats alright, now me and my friends got to expand
our friendship circles. ^^

In only a span of a few months this year so far,
I have accomplished so much in my opinion.
many MANY first times stuff I did.
Some of it I of course regretted.
(Don't even get me started)

I actually wanted to post this in December.
But what the hell, I might as well post what i have accomplished so far here
right now =)

Well,
In January i got into my first ever relationship.
I put my full trust on this guy.

In my eyes, there was just him in the picture.
I had nvr done this FOR A GUY before so yes all this FIRST TIME.
Yup u guessed it. First heartbreak.


I accomplished mending back my many friendships
Having someone that controlled me
and not trusting me to go out with anyone really did
crack many of my friendships and made me want my freedom.

I'm glad i mended them back.

I accomplished getting over the hurt and the pain
without a rebound guy. (Its not worth hurting ppl in the end)

I accomplished getting out of depression.

I accomplished looking at the memories as a shadow of nothing-ness
without feeling pain anymore.

I accomplished going to places with significant meaning without shedding a tear.

I accomplished listening to rumours, that he left me for another girl
without feeling pain but pity for the girl.

I accomplished everything there is
which is related to getting over someone basically =__=

.........the only thing so far is Bitterness.
YES I am still bitter and therefore, I trash mouth him.
Just like how any one of u would trash mouth your first ex for leaving u for another guy/girl.

Yea oopx I take my word back... I guess I have not forgiven him entirely.
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I accomplished making many new friends in my class.

I accomplished many stuff in college(too much to blog about)

I accomplished being a mini model for my friend Aam x)

He's a great designer =) Akito, (the blonde one) too.

.........which ended up on the college's wall .

together with my group's colour study group work x)

......and also our charcoal works. Congrats to all. =)

My church was also asked to do a bit of charity.....
So I also accomplished doing a little bit of charity by being a performer
doing a multicultural dance to raise funds at a church in Subang.

I can't remember the choir's name...but its not local.
Their voices were like angels =)

I did not loose balance this time suprisingly so I
really enjoyed myself performing.
I also did many first time sports...
i planned a lot but did not have the guts to do some...
my best friend, Val, helped me achieve
something which I always wanted but was chicken to do......

SWIMMING !!!!

Yes laugh all u want but i finally learnt how to swim at the age of 18 ^^

Lucky number 7 (First time on archery)


injuries...

Guess what???

BAIT. ...........wondering why?

Prawn fishing =) My first time.

My lucky spot... I caught 5 prawns and got hit by a prawn for the first time in the face by val's cousin......by accident of course. =__=

Prawn fishing also with friends after that on another day...
i ended up 0 catch.
damn it !

First time orbing too with Val.
(actual pic not with me)
sry i kicked your face val. >.<>

My first time to karaoke...seriously man... I was deprived from fun.

There are other stuff but obviously
i can't remember all of the fun stuff i did.
One thing for sure was,
there was alot of SHOPPING and hitting the cinemas.
Others include, pooling, sleepovers, baking,

basically going OUT with FRIENDS.

btw... found the perfect shades with val's help ;)


and recently during the mid autumn festival,
BONFIRE !!!!
Seriously...u don't expect youths to be carrying lanterns...
We make fires ^^
and went for a night drive after that.

Its getting late.
I definitely have to catch up with some sleep.
Just came back from KL with friends again.

i won't know when will be the next time i blog.
hopefully more progress =)
Out.

noooo

nono i realised my blog is so OUTDATED since my sad life phase.
time to change.
will blog when i'm free..... ^^

VERY SOON !

birthday ^^

wheeee today's my birthday.
i have made many accomplishments which i would soon post about.
now i wld wanna enjoy my remaining birthday time =)
will post when i'm free.
i have one last thing to do in my phone.
one last thing and then it will be complete for me =)
gtg

what the hellll ????

OMG

Ok here's the issue.
I just found out, that the new girl....
The persistant one,
who's using me and my friends in a way,
and trying to break us all up....

Well we asked her classmates whats her deal and they said.....
She's a guy !!!!
A GUY !!!

OMG I'm just totally freaked out that he has us fooled all the while
thinking that he was a she.
I did notice that he had a gruff voice,
guy's name,
guy's hair and well.... not wearing a bra and all but
when they told me and my friends,.............
We got so traumatised and disturbed throughout English class.

He did wore shirts with flowers and smiling sunshines etc...
Damn and now he's calling me.

Arrrrhhhh!

I have so many homework now.
Other than that, my life's been back to normal ^^
It already had days ago.
I'm glad i'm not moping anymore.
I find it pathetic for being all down for no reason
as the door has been closed on me with no reason.

Ppl change... no one can stop that fact.
But changing that fast is a whole new meaning.
I guess your love was not love after all.

Yea...I do feel a bit regretful...
All the memories, hopes and dreams crushed...
U being my first love.
I respect your decision though.
I'm happy for u.... no hard feelings.
I forgive u =) So don't feel bad about changing (that is if u meant it)

Change is normal. and yes i believe in fate.
Just kinda shocked that u convinced me in actually thinking that our future is what we create...and that we change into what we want to become....

LOL
I can't believe i actually trusted that saying and
held on to it instead of my saying,
"leave it all to God.. our future is in His hands"
U convinced me...
Made me believe.
Then smacked me in my face back taking back my saying and saying it back to me.

ouch that hurt alot...
i wonder if u wld ever know the pain u caused me.
But now...owh well...lol what can i do right?
Nothing... As like u said yourself,
its not me...its just you.
U told me i did nothing wrong so fine,
i'll believe that.

I've picked myself up.
And i still forgive u ^^
Good luck though.
Btw.... i'm not gonna pop the final question.

If u want it over, u have to do it cuz i'm not gonna say anything.
But i've already assumed it though.
Its just not official and u are leaving me hanging....
AGAIN.
Hope we'll be friends though.
No hard feelings =)

Anyway... i'm glad i still can relate to my old friends.
I really want to meet up with them.
Haiz...there's just not enough time anymore... bummer.
Have loads of work to do.
My newclasmates look nice.
I hope i can get along with them like my previous class =)
Gtg now... ; )

camp kristus aman

June26-28, 2009.

Wheeee the Penang camp.
I had not been there since I was 3years old.
The price was so cheap and I wanted to be closer to God.
I felt like I was drifting away from Him.
So I went to establish that. That was my main goal honestly.
Sorry if I seem like a church nerd... Call me whatever u want.
I love God loads.

Btw I'm hooked on another song.
Taylor Swift-I'd Lie
Its so good ^^

Anyway back to the camp.
Yea the arrivals and the journey was a bore.
Chat up with my friends i had not seen in ages.
There were a few new faces.
They were really nice ppl.
It seems they had been in my church for a long time...
Shit, I guess I must be kinda blind in church.

Slept my way to penang while texting occasionally.
I was exhausted.


When I reached the place, we went exploring the place talking and laughing.
I was ecstatic. I was so excited, i climbed on huge rocks etc.

Florence said i was like some little girl ^^
I really could not help it. I was beaming from ear to ear.

-Flo,me,mich,shell,beatrice-

-mingling-

-loads of shells-

We played games after that.
I suck at being the detective and the killer T__T damn !


The sunset was amazing.
I really kept on missing someone to tears.
Michelle did not understand so she kept on teasing Shelby and me whenever we
got daydreamy etc. The moon and stars were breathtaking too.
OMGGG my heart felt so, so ....arhhhh I don't know how to describe it...
Its like perfect yet not perfect !!!

I had a great dinner...

The food was catered by Eden...It was delicious.

-campfire praise and worship-

-I had to share the lyrics with josh-

As I slept I let the past memories that made me complete wash over my mind.
It made me feel better that way.

I had the whole room all to myself. I was exhausted to bits till i did not have time to be scared.

Second day...
I went for mass at a house.
There was a dog inside and its tail brushed my back like some broom...
I was terrified.
Went to the Youth Park with all these amazing facilities in the evening.
It was huge.
Sat at some weird chair at the park with Florence
while doing a quiz
to find out what was my love language was.
Mine was quality time suprisingly.

-Ted as usual^^ -

I loved the sessions.
It was basically on love languages.
I really learnt a lot.
The healing sessions were uneffective. I was just to guarded to let out any emotions...

Until the last day.....

-mass at a church not the house this time-

They did a suprise praying over and
I really felt the full force and begun bawling.
That felt really good.
I felt so lifted and peaceful after that.

The best part of this camp was the sessions and praise and worship.
It was just so awesome and filled with great songs
It really gave me the spirit to just move and sing.

I did not know penang ppl spoke hokkien.
I ordered noodles in canthonese and she looked at me
with the wierdest face !!!

(some pics not in order with the days)

Good thing on the other days, my friends helped me ordered the food.

I remembered while going to the toilets,i turned around searching
and bumped into this fat woman
with all her flab.
SHIT !!!!
It was like some soft cushion pressed into my face like some spring!
I was absolutely mortified....
and embarassed.
She was pissed off !
I'll nvr forget that incident.

I was happy i got to go home.
I really missed many ppl.
The bus ride was boring.
Left at 4pm i think and reached my church at 12.30AM around there i think.
It was freezing in the bus.
I was so glad to get out of there.

group pic !

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