ok i don't know what wrong with this freaking blog post but all the words appear huge no matter how much i try to edit it to make it small...so forgive the wording.its the freaking blog! Anyway, u know who u are !!! u know what u said...u knew it was a lie yet u kept on going!!!what the hell is wrong with you????
do u have any idea how much i trusted you???yes...i heard rumours about u in form1...i believed it...i hated u for a while...but as the years went by....i let the rumours slip away. we were friends and i assured myself that all the things i heard about you...was a lie...so i got close to u...not only me...but the rest of us as well.at first, i hesitated but then, i gave in. THINKING U WOULD HAVE CHANGED!
I WAS sadly mistaken.we went to the library.you were scared !!! we wondered why...u even wanted to chicken out from school...we wondered why...till i got to school and found out WHY...did u think we will never find out about your lies???
have you ever been betrayed before?yes u knew it very well...don't deny it ! Keep your @#$%^ two faced BITCHY ASS HOLE CHARACTER and you'll loose every one of your friends one by one! tell me....are u that desperate to crave acceptance from the crowd till u loose yourself...pretend to be someone else....tell lies behind ones back and lies to another to be accepted????? YOU are a FOOL if u think that!!! once again i'm not trying to hurt your feelings...i'm just telling you how i felt...the anger...the betrayal.i really trusted you...what happened???
right now i'm just hating the F#*% out of you ! not only me BUT US !!!
be yourself...whats wrong with you???if your attitude does not match with the crowd...fine go find another...don't pretend to be someone else and hurt them if u know whats best for you.i really though u changed IT WAS A LIE...no matter what happens,even if we are friends again...it will nvr be the same again,u loss my trust,THAT can nvr be regained as i did that the last time to my best friend for 3 y ears and she lied to me again... whatever...and u call me best friend best friend???best friend my ass la !!!!
omg today was such an emotional day for me...everything went well till i fought with val....that was bad...i dono why but i cried...its not that i wanted too...it just flowed out....i was embarassed out of my socks...we settled it aniways and practised...whoaaa...i'll say we practiced A LOT... we sang during lessons...off lessons.....at home...free periods....library.......but i could now remember the lyrics for certain parts and was so afraid that i might screw uppp!!!
when the competition for BU4 idol started...me and val were nervous like shit...we drew lots and me and val were no.19 out of 20 contestants....
so performance after performance it went on and on and we got more and more nervous....arrhhhh...
when it was our turn...my mind was blank...i could not remember a the lyrics AGAIN LIKE IN FORM1...I PUBLICLY embarassed myself in form1 wen i joined the singing competition...i froze....omggg....i was also praying like crazy and thank God SABRINA was there to help tutor me and val before the performance...wen we sang....val forgot the lyrics...that was bad...she appoligised to everyone and we started again...i think there was something wrong with my mike as i could not hear myself...maybe it was just me....
we sang and i remembered there were this group of girls laughing their heads for God knows what...when i sang...i saw their faces as if they were laughing at me...i was insulted...but i looked at the judges and sang and val did awesome...as the performance ended...i whispered THAT WAS BADDD to Val...she said the same...but whats done is done...as the results were being read...me and val were holding hands saying its either win or loose...i was already crestfallen as i was thinking how can WE WIN??? MEEEE????i stared out at the rain stained glass pane and when the results were read...den she read and second place goes to Valerie and Alice...i'm like WHAT??? WHAT????US??? i was so happy and awestruck....val was too and she began crying like i've nvr seen her cry b4...I BEGUN TO CRY TOO cuz it was so unexpected...so #$^& unexpected...sigh...i wanna thank Florence and Alina for cheering me on...thank euuu...the BU4 idol is Joey..NOW THAT WAS shocking but he WAS good so guess its meant to be ^^
~father's watching and snoring in front of the tv
~bro's snoring in his room after talking to his gf.
~mom is well......snoring in her room sssshhhhh
basically.... the tv is a magic harp that gets my whole family to sleep every sundays
~by the way tweet tweet...there's a dead chic in my tree. maybe i'll fry it
