Sunday, December 26, 2010

The Countdown.

The countdown to the new year is on.

2010 had thought me so much
and I learnt a lot.

My regrets this year, not learning to speak Chinese.
and being a little anti-social this year due to my mood.

I am a strange person in my opinion.
I won't call myself an introvert, nor an extrovert...
rather, I would place myself in between the two.

I might be bubbly but anti-social the next minute.
My mood changes fast and its also effected by my sleep.

This year is sucky because I am SO ANTISOCIAL due to my emo mood swings.

ALSO, my work !
Its stripped me of my normal life....
Now even when I'm on a holiday, I have to do work...

The worst part is.... designers splurge so much on brain power, 
money, and effort but the pay remains the same
while the price for everything now is increasing.....

..... but when my passion lies in this business,
I have no choice but to keep moving forward and be strong.
I'll make it somehow and I really want to thank all my friends
who have supported and prayed for me to the very end.

Your understanding and efforts... I am truly touched.
I want to thank all of you from the bottom of my heart.
I feel truly blessed to have known all of u.


My resolution next year is to learn mandarin !
I feel so so so horrible without this language.
I REALLY want to get to know my family....
my cousins, grandmother, relatives......

All this years I have been nodding like a fool
not understanding, being left out time and time again, bullied...
SERIOUSLY...... Its traumatizing.

So to my friends that know this language...
Help me out alright..... teach meeee !


(with college buddies)

Planning even a movie outing with u guys is so tough !
So I appreciate every single successful outing that we had.
It made me learn so much about all of u.

Work hard, Play hard =)

I love all of you ! seriously...
Although I might not be butt close to every single one of u.
U were still there for me.... contributed to my smiles and memories 

By the way...
to this silly panda....
Get Well soon !!!

Back To December

I just heard this song by Taylor Swift
on the radio a few days back.

I liked these few verses....


Your guard is up and I know why..
Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night.'


I'm sure most of us have had experiences like this.
Not exactly crafted exactly like the lyrics....
but close to it.
Mistakes, mistakes mistakes....

But these mistakes teaches u a lesson, changes u
and makes u a stronger person throughout the process.

So anyway......
this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Its 4am x_x

Its going to be Christmas real soon.
I'm excited !

But firstly I was talking to a friend,
which made me think about the topic, insecurity.

Many people get insecure.
Maybe by our actions, maybe thats just the way they are, etc...

But whatever the reason is.... its dangerous.
Many arguments occur when one is insecure..
Usually its kept in, sometimes released in speech.

These words.....
can really make or break the person.
Once said, it can never be taken back.

Words are the sharpest tool to hurt a person.
Its not easy to forget these  hurtful words....

Friends are meant to be happy for one another.
Its not meant to be a one sided thing whereby one just
hold in his/her feelings and agree to whatever he says just to save the friendship.
Gosh yes we know the person is insecure, thats just the way he is but still...
How much can the other person bear with this?

This person, which gives in most of the time..........
WILL pop eventually.
Its just a matter of time.

If u are really her friend,
you should know better that she will always be by your side !
She might have more friends, so what? U expect to chain her up to u?
To have one close friend to her for the rest of her life?

U are her FRIEND..... not boyfriend.......

What about when she works? and when she gets a bf?
Both of u are leading different paths. Things may change,
BUT for your friendship.... gosh, if u two were really that close,
you should stop destroying your friendship with your insecurities
and know that she will always ALWAYS be there for u.

Think about it.

I wish I knew you, close enough to tell u this.
I do not want to see another friendship fall apart.